shining inheritance!

omgosh! i fall in love again and i'll never stop falling in love with you. currently i'm watching this drama, shining inheritance. my oppa is so cute. but i don't really like his hair in this drama. i like it when his hair is straight. omg. he's awesome. okay, back to the drama. i kinda like this drama which is entirely is about love and life. money is very important and a bit scary. people work like mad just to earn money. and the rich people are so arrogant, based from this drama.

my oppa is an arrogant prince. but i still like him no matter what. because i know in real life he is not like that. haha. i'm still searching where to download this drama. in real life, i mean my life, i like a guy who is like oppa. as in, oppa looks really clean and smart. even in one night two days, he always looks smart and clean. i don't mind if his outfits are not branded but at least look clean okay.

it's true that people always say when you talk about something you love the most, you hardly to stop talking about it. like i'm doing right now. i think i want to write everything about my beloved oppa. i can't talk about this drama yet because i haven't finished watch it. haha.

okay okay. i think it's enough now. byebye.

love drama and relationship.

i never seen this kind of drama, as in, in the real live. i always see this kind of drama on tv. and then today, zaapppp! it happens to myself. i don't know how to handle this situation. when i heard about it, i just smiled but my brain didn't work well. i'm so confused.

this drama makes me believe in fate. honestly, i don't believe true love, soulmate and whatever. it's obviously shown on tv, magazines and newspapers about marriage and divorce. you say you love me today and marry me, lets see few years later, you'll find another love and divorce me.

i hope there's at least one person here with me to tell me what should i do. but the best thing is when you have problem like this, you'll know who is your truly best friend. oh i'm so sad.

life is short.

life is short, i know. everyday i'll try to make my day full of love and fun. i want to live my life to the fullest. i don't care if people i'm a bitch or a slut. because they are actually do not know me. the true me. everyone has their own reason when they do something. like i throw away my food and from your perspective i just a spoil brat who likes to waste food. but when you be me or at least you just sit near me, you'll know the reason i throw the food away just because i have allergic with it.

when you know me you'll realise that i'm not bad. luckily, i far i can remember,i never heard even a single person says hate me. but i know, there are people who hate me outside there. just show me who you are, i'll accept with open mind.

sometime when i try to success, i will forget about everyone else. like, when i know the answers for physics exam and i really have to get 100%, and so i can get a scholarship from petronas but you must be the highest in the exam, and you friends are also struggling for the exam, so suddenly i'll be so selfish. i don't care if i need to cheat or forget about my friends because this is a tough world you know. this is life. if you want to survive you need to fight. if you want to stay alive, don't trust anyone utterly.

life is hard. love is pain.

go ahead and try.

lie lie lie lie lie

it was all just a lie

lie lie lie lie lie

someone is trying to blackmail me. the most interesting part is, i don't know this person. his name is mike something and he sent an email to me. he asked me do a favour for him and if i refuse to do it he will tell everyone about me, even to my boyfriend. omg, who is this stupid person?! if he really knows about me, he'll definitely know that i don't have any boyfriend. so what he knows about me?

he's trying to play with fire. just do what you want to do, dude. i don't care. because i know, you are just a spammer. i just blocked him from sending any email to me again. but, i really do think to see his face. haha.

okay, i'm so hungry. i want to eat. i need to eat. i can see my bloated tummy. it's okay. i'm fine with that. i miss my friends. they are struggling now. fighting crimes, i mean exams. hope they are all doing fine. hwaiting!

to be or not to be.

yesterday i went to clinic for medical check-up and x-ray. i was tiring but not that bad. i was so surprised because i gained 2 kg. no wonder almost all my friends think i'm fatter (what a strong word) now. i always eat. you know what, i'm eating now! yes, i mean now. i don't care if i'm fat, as long as i'm happy with it.

i really hate if someone falling asleep while watching tv. without switch off the tv first. like seriously. in my situation now, i want to watch tv. but someone is sleeping in front of tv so i can't watch it. i just don't want to be rude okay. why not if this someone just goes to this someone's room. so i can take over the tv. marah nihhh.

but at the same time i feel a bit sad. my oppa is diagnosed with swine flu. get well soon, oppa.

deeply hurt.

life is really tough. hard. people around us are not that good. sometimes they are very mean. i'm the one who are easily to trust people. i'm so naive. a bimbo. but i have feelings. i'll get hurt if someone lies to me. i'll get hurt if someone forgets me. i'm just a human after all.

aku bukanlah jenis mok mintak dibalas bait. i just hope that if i do good things to you, you'll do the same to me. bukanlah maksud aku mun aku beli beg gucci pake aku, so you MUST buy me a gucci bag too. just at least be kind to me. like, help me when i have problems.

i'm so sad, you know. really sad and i'm so dissapointed in you. i know, not all people in this world are like me, and not all are like you. everyone is different.

tears and nightmare

i felt empty and sad.
i ate a lot so my tears would not drop. but i could not hold it.
i cried.
my eyes turned red and my nose were running.
i wanted to stop but i really could not help it.
my tears were flowing like a waterfall.
my heart was in pain. my body could not even move.
i wondered for a moment if this was all a dream.
i would like to wake up from this nightmare and be relieved.