it's raining and i think it is sad. the black clouds. the winds. everything is so gloomy. why is it like this? but dah start holiday lak please lah hari-hari hujan k. i dont really like rain, but i like water. nangga parit sebelah rumah pun rasa mok terjun jak dalam ya. sigh. i miss home.
i start exams next week. i feel really down. please motivate me people. because my marks so far aren't that great. pressure. pressure. all this pressure is killing me. i'm planning to do honours in forth year. but to do honours, you have to get a very very very very good result in third year. the units for honours students and normal students are just the same. but i just want to differentiate myself with everyone. because in back home, most of my friends are doing to this course. so at least i can feel proud and tell them this "i have an honours degree you bitch!". because since last year i always this kind of questions, why are you doing this course? A is doing it too. I think B also planning to do this course. then how you want to find a job. you have to compete with everyone.
sometimes i can sense my mom doesn't agree with my choice. luckily my uncle (he's an electrician) said that my job boleh kaya. alu besar mata my mom. haha. i'm kidding. i mean at least my mom knows that my course also has future.
oh it's 8.44 am already. i have class at 10. have to get ready. bye.
